- Location:work
- Mood:reflective
Not to be a pain in the ass or anything but he is MIXED he isn't the first African American President (Elect) Obama is the first MIXED President elect. Haley Berry wasn't the first female black actress to win an Oscar; she was the first MIXED woman to win an Oscar. The list goes on and on. I bring this up because I am a mother of a Mixed racial child and I am sick of everything being African American when it isn't. I, like Haley Berry's mother and Barack Obama's mother, am white and find it bullshit that because our children have varying levels of Melanin in their skin makes them African American. They have Black in them and I do not deny that, but they have other ethnicity's in them. My daughter is black, Irish, Italian, German, and American Indian, if you ask me that sound pretty mixed. Heck without African American is still sounds pretty mixed.
I remember being in school with a mixed kid and he used to be tormented by the black kids for not being black enough. That would have been ten years after Obama would have been in school. (I am ten years younger than he is) Am I to assume the black population who is praising him so much now as being a black leader, wouldn't have picked on him when he was younger if he was in an inner city or even a suburban school? Let's get real here for a minute. Back with Obama was a kid there were still states that had laws that barred interracial marriage. Hell there might still be, but no one actually enforces them, who knows. So he would have been very different from the population around him.
I remember when Haley Berry was interviewed either before or after her win, and she said that her mother told her to that since people are going to see her as black anyway that is who she should identify with. I was frankly pissed off by that statement. I understand why she would have told that to her daughter.
My Dad who grew up in the south and had many southern values told me, after he met the man who was going to be my husband that he worried about his grandchildren being mixed because they would have to go through a lot of shit because they were mixed. He was right in the information that he had, but in the area that I am in and raising my daughter in, it isn't that big of a deal. There is 67.3% minority population in her district although they list black as the highest at 59% they do not list mixed at all. It is strange since they have mixed racial background as an option on all of the forms that I had to fill in, and I know of several mixed children in her class.
Maybe it's just me but I think that mixed children are special, because they get to see, and live two different cultures. I feel that I have made it apparent to my daughter that she is unique and special because she is both black and white and that the new President is Mixed just like her.
I think that the work MIXED should be used when speaking about the President Elect and for any other person who is special enough to have parents who are not of the same race.
- Location:work
- Mood:
contemplative - Music:A message/ coldplay
- Location:bed
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sleepy - Music:the humm of my laptop's fan, and my boyfriends breathing
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blah - Music:some Kelly Clarkson song on the radio
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mellow - Music:Spaz- N.E.R.D.
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blah
- Location:home
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anxious - Music:violet hill- coldplay
I think I don't stop to help people mainly because of fear. Okay, yes I have fear. Something ingrained in most women, something that only one or two men have actually done that I know about, or at least studied, and that is that every man out there on the side of the road wants to rape and kill us. Would I pull over and help a mountain lion or a rabid looking animal? Hmmm probably not but if I had a choice between rabid dog and guy on the side of the road. I would go with rabid dog.
So it is almost midnight and I can't sleep again. I have a lot of shit going on in my head but can't seem to get any of it out on this screen. I am reading my friends third book that just came out and wondering why I cannot seem to finish my first non workshop short film. Do I have that fear of success that I have seen in so many of my friends? Why is it that the younger me didn't take those chances on myself to be who I wanted to be. I know that this is the agreement that I made with the universe and it knows better than I, but the choices I made because of others instead of myself for myself.. Why?
- Location:bed
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tired - Music:the humm of the a/c and the movie the Mighty
I had Lodge this weekend and I was pretty zoned out during it. I didn't get particularly hot. I did sweat like a race horse in the middle of August after a race, but I wasn't really concerned about it. I kept getting images of I'm no sure what to call them but the closes thing I can think of is ropes of light. It kind of reminded me of the scene in cinderella when the fairy godmother transforms her into the dress. Not quite that but close. It kept spiraling up from my stomach to the "universe" or God, and would then dissipate. It was colorful and interesting but I didn't get much more out of Lodge than that and being calm.
- Location:Work
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calm - Music:voices carry- till tuesday
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optimistic - Music:Dont Worry, Be Happy- Bobby McFerrin
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pissed off - Music:reality used to be a friend of mine- PM Dawn
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tired - Music:run away- real mcoy
- Location:home
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peaceful - Music:Infinite Possibilities- Amel Larrieux
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- Mood:artistic
- Music:only the good die young- Billy Joel
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- Mood:in pain
- Music:you aint seen nothing yet-
I remember being in high school I know I do, but recently I have been contacted by people I went to high school with who I don't remember. I wasn't what one would call popular, but everyone seem to know me, or some kind of myth of me maybe. My problem is that because everyone has changed so much in the almost 20 years since I graduated they don't look familiar, and my name recognition is totally shot. There are people who I do remember. Like the people who I knew from before high school, but high school itself? If I met you in high school there is a high probability I don't remember you, unless of course you were in choir with me, then there is a higher chance that I remember but no guaranties. Is that just awful? Why do people feel the need to hold on to that past? Did anyone really have that much fun in high school that they cannot let go of it? Sure I went to my 10 year reunion, mostly to see who got fat and who was gay, and I will go to my 20th next year, not really sure why, maybe because it is expected of me or something who knows, and because I look dam fantastic. I look pretty much the same as I did back in the day. Except I know who I am now and I like me a whole lot more than I did back then. I guess that is why I don't understand why people like to be stuck in that high school Nostalgia when no one seemed to know who they were or where their destiny would carry them. Maybe there destiny was to only be big time in high school. That would suck!
- Location:work, as usual
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blah
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bored
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- Mood:
hyper
Ok so I am not as consistent as I would like to be on this journal. As you can see I haven't written in a like a week. I keep thinking I have more time to do things I just never seem to get around to everything. Plus on the beginning and end of all months I am extra busy at work so everything else suffers. I am crabby and tired and I also start PMS which is really fun. I have a feeling that I didn't have PMS until it was so publicized and then every woman in america developed it. Maybe that is why the country has become so fat is because it is publicized so much that we are a bunch of fatties, and we all have diabetes and heart disease, maybe that is how cancer started, and AIDS got so blown out of control. I think the human brain can cause the body to do harm to itself, so why couldn't it also fix itself? I am not sure what started this rant. Oh guess I should start doing some work now.
- Location:work
- Mood:busy
- Location:home
